About a week ago, I was giving a tarot reading for a friend and a card popped up that insinuated she was fearful of something. When I asked her what she was afraid of, she automatically said, “Oh that’s easy! I’m scared of being successful.” I was baffled! I just couldn’t comprehend the idea of being frightened of “doing well”, because, at the end of the day, isn’t that what we all want? Fear of failure? Of course! That’s something I worry about often, but success? I just didn’t see how that could possibly be scary.
Flash forward to a few days ago when another friend of mine was wonderful enough to do a reading for me regarding my question, “What did I need to know or do in order to have a successful tarot reading business?”, since I’ll be officially charging for my services starting on May 1st. Aside from the reading being deep, healing, and powerful, she also said something that completely illuminated my mind:
“It seems like there will be endless opportunities that will come your way. Could you be worried about this? Is there a fear of success? Sometimes we think of fear and assume that we fear rejection or failure when in fact we may concern ourselves with stepping into our power, living to our fullest potential, or achieving the success we know in our hearts we deserve.”
It was like the parting of the Red Seas, or my big “A-ha!” moment. You see, for the last month, either Death or the Hangman has shown up at some point in the readings I’ve done for myself, meaning, I needed to let go of “something” in order to move forward OR look at a situation from a different point of view so I can push past stagnation. At first I thought, “Hmm…I think I’m scared of not being a good enough tarot reader” or “I’m worried that no one will want me to read for them,” but slowly I let those anxieties dissipate, yet, Death or the Hangman kept knocking on my door. I couldn’t understand what it was that I needed to let go!
However, thanks to my friend’s beautiful interpretation, I was finally able to view my fear from an alternative perspective. Succeeding, and then trying to maintain that success, in conjunction with balancing my business, blog, school, family, and friends all at the same time, is probably just as terrifying as flat out failing. It’s a lot of pressure where things can get chaotic fairly quickly and life becomes overwhelming in an instant. Or does it?
Everyone has heard the famous quote by 32nd President of the United States, Franklin Delano Roosevelt: “We have nothing to fear, but fear itself.” In other words, you can spend all of your time worrying (consciously or subconsciously) about what might or might not happen, but you’re not doing anything productive. If you fail, so what? At least you tried. If you succeed and things get stressful, so what? Find a way to deal with it. If you land some where in the middle, so what? Come up with a plan to continue moving forward towards your end-goal. There’s always a road to take no matter what happens, so even though the outcome may not be quite what you expected, it’s no where near as terrible as it would have been if you had never even taken that initial step in the first place.
As my friend said in her concluding remarks of my reading, “Let fear be your motivator, not your reason for paralysis or stagnation.” I couldn’t agree more. So, press onward my friends, no matter where the road takes you.